Midnight Blog

Ok, so it's the middle of the night and here I am writing my first blog on my iPad in the pitch black nothingness of the room I share with my sleeping husband.  Did I mention it was dark? (I wonder what this blog would look like in the morning?) I feel like Doogie Howser typing into his computer after a busy day. The only difference is I didn't save anyone's life today! Oh that and I can't get my hair as high as his even if I teased my bangs with a toothbrush. Not that I would try it.

Anyway, the thought that keeps me awake on a night like this is "What the hell am I going to do with my life now?" I'm 35, married, with two very young boys. Having just moved 7,295 miles from home , it's a daily struggle just trying to make sense of it all! But then again we moved a little over a year ago. Shouldn't I have figured out by now what it is I want to do for myself ? Don't get me wrong, I love being a mother and if anything, this move has brought our little family even closer. But don't you sometimes feel that you want to do something for yourself, something relevant and independently fulfilling? I never thought I'd say this after juggling a hectic work schedule for more than 10 years before this move, but, I miss having a career.

Oh well, sleep beckons, I know I  have to go to my happy place now for tomorrow brings another day of chaos for which my energy is desperately needed.

Ah, my happy place......justice and retribution.

Aww, come on, I just made them stand there for a minute, two minutes tops! And only because the little one couldn't get past "Mama" in the statement "Mama is the best mother in the whole wide universe!". My little imps.